Cruise:
Day 1: We got on the boat and walked around and swam in the pool until about 1:30pm. Then we went to our tiny cabin room on deck 2(bottom of the boat), unpacked and took a nap. Didn't do much else except get to know the ship and see a show after dinner. I got a little home sick but I was better by the next morning.

Day 2: We were in Key West, Florida, a little, very hot, and humid island at the bottom of the US. They even had a site where it was the southern most point of the US, it was cool but kinda humor-ish to me. While we were there we went a Butterfly Conservatory, it was great. The butterflies were beautiful! (I will be posting pictures very soon, I just was too lazy before. XD) Didn't do much else except stop at a couple of jewelry stores and a clothing store.

Day 3: Cozumel, Mexico! So the adventure thing we went on was 8 hours long but we spent most of the time traveling to Xel-Ha. The little excursion we went on...wasn't worth $200. -.- I tried snorkeling but the water coming my mask and going up my nose freaked me out so I didn't like that. After that was over we saw some dolphins perform tricks and got some pictures of them too! They were cute. X3

Day 4: Belize city, Belize... It's an island... We missed our excursion because of the time difference confusion so we ended up with a local tour.... It was the most depressing thing ever. Seeing all of the homeless people, the starving animals, and the houses that were literally sinking into the ground because they did not have a foundation. This day sucked a lot..

Day 5: Stuck at sea.. My mom and I got massages, I got a deep tissue massage and damn I needed it. DX After that we went swimming for a bit until started to rain on us. XDD LOL Everyone immediately started to run into the closest door. It was hilarious..
Later we saw a magic show and a review of the cruise then we went to bed.
The next day we went home on a plane, from Ft. Lauder dale. That was the end of the cruise!

Visit to Dad's:
Day 1: Got to his house at 2:30pm or something like that.. We didn't do much the rest of the day. :/

Day 2: Had a back to back movie day, saw Transformers then went to the theater to see Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. I loved both Transformers movies. That was day 2..

Day 3: Went kayaking on a river, saw tons of birds and turtles. XD

Day 4: We went to a place called "The Flume Gorge" it was cool! It was this huge waterfall, I'm so out of shape I had trouble climbing all the freakin' stairs. XD (Yeah I need to exercise more) Then we went in a Tram Car up the mountain and did another hike in a hail storm. DX I got sick from that for a few days..

Day 5: We were supposed to go to Smelly Beach but we got rained out... So instead my dad and his gf went out to get steak while I stayed home and watched Shaun of the Dead for the first time.. Later that night I watched Underworld, it is now my favorite movie!

Day I Went Home: We went to Smelly Beach then relaxed until it was time to go to the airport. Then I went home..

I can honestly say I had fun that visit... But I don't think I'm going to go back up there again, if he wants to see me from now on, he has to come here. What happened while I was there and not having so much fun... He lectured me a bit about driving and told me how he wants me to drive at 18 (fuck you, you have no say...). The last night I was spending there I got a 30 minute lecture on my weight and how I could end up like my mom.. Then in the car on the way to the airport he said "I don't like how you dress but at least you don't look like a dirt bag or a hooker." (look who's talking oh dirt bag dad of mine, you can kiss my fucking ass and get over it). He had not one positive thing to say about me the whole time and he took his time to say that to me. Asshole. The reason I call him a dirt bag is because he dresses the way I used to (in holed up jeans and t-shirts), he lives like he's on a fucking farm (7 dogs and 5 cats). The dogs fucking climb on you and snot in your food while you eat. And I was the dirt bag? For what? For taking a shower every other day? For dressing the way I did? For not making my hair look nice? I take a shower everyday, I dress the way I want to (much nicer), and I straighten my hair everyday. But he never said once, "Oh you look nice.". His quote.. "I really like who you are becoming, much more mature and clean." ...YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHO I'M BECOMING! He has not known me since I was fucking 8! He's so lost in his own stupid life he has no time for me. I guess that's why he left our old house for his girlfriend..he had no reason to stay here, nothing holding him back...

Anyway I'm done talking about my father.. I wish there was some way to kick him the fuck out of my life.

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Schedule
August 14th to 17th: Going to see

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Quote(s):

~There's nothing deeper than the heart no matter how tainted it may be.
~I believe that you make yourself happy not the god you worship.
~Find someone you know won't leave you no matter what you do, that's true friendship and love.
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Music:
[link] Gotta Be Somebody by Nickelback
[link] I'd Come for You by Nickelback
[link] Never Gonna Be Alone by Nickelback
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Lyrics of the Week: The Day That Never Comes by Metallica <3
Born to push you around,
Better just stay down.
You pull away,
He hits the flesh,
You hit the ground.

Mouth so full of lies,
Tend to black your eyes.
Just keep them closed,
Keep praying,
Just keep waiting.

(Chorus
Waiting for the one!
The day that never comes!
When you stand up and feel the warmth!
But the sunshine never comes!

No the sun shine never comes.

Push you cross that line,
Just stay down this time.
Hide in yourself,
Crawl in yourself,
You'll have your time.

God I'll make them pay,
Take it back one day.
I'll end this day,
I'll splatter color on this gray.

(Chorus)
Waiting for the one!
The day that never comes!
When you stand up and feel the warmth!
But the sunshine never comes!

Love is a four letter word!
And never spoken here!

Love is a four letter word!
Here in this prison!
I suffer this no longer!
I'll put an end to,
This I swear!
This I swear!
The sun will shine!
This I swear!
This I swear!
This I SWEAR!!!

This song is for my father because, for me the day that never comes is the day that I see my father truly care about me and who I am. ^^

My mood(s): Disappointed and pissed off.
Status: Is sick of making all the effort to keep a friendship alive.
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~Ashley